I stood in front of her face,

from

Fri, 11 Aug 2006 16:13:35 GMT

THE MAN THAT HATH NO MUSIC IN HIMSELF, NOR IS NOT MOVED WITH CONCORD OF SWEET SOUNDS, IS FIT FOR TREASONS, STRATAGEMS, AND SPOILS. THE MOTIONS OF HIS SPIRIT ARE DULL AS NIGHT, AND HIS AFFECTIONS DARK AS EREBUS. LET NO SUCH MAN BE TRUSTED. SHAKESPEARE

Wed, 19 Jul 2006 17:52:04 GMT

hey i remember this trick!

dear jacksonville

Fri, 28 Apr 2006 00:12:20 GMT

i know that everyone's school is out now. i know it. i mean, its not like its not hard to find out.
so, next week everyone should be like sweet summer! lets get wasted and get some tricks to give us dome!
i wish that you would come to troy for like a week or a couple of days or just a night. it is an easy drive, unless you are kyle. nevertheless, i wish that some of you would come down here for a couple of days.

Wed, 29 Mar 2006 03:46:46 GMT

seriously....

wtf.

Matthew HICKS

Jacksonville — Funeral services for Matthew Phillip Hicks, 20, of Jacksonville, Ala., will be Wednesday at 2 p.m. from the K.L. Brown Funeral Home and Cremation Center Chapel with the Rev. Jesse Barksdale officiating. Burial will be in the Greenlawn Memorial Gardens. The family will receive friends at the funeral home this evening from 6 to 8 p.m. Mr. Hicks died at his residence.

He is survived by his mother, Betty Bentley Rogers; his father, Phillip Royce Hicks, both of Jacksonville, Ala.; a sister, Amanda Hicks West, Buchanan, Ga.; a step-sister; Amber Clay; a step-brother; Dustin McWhorter; a grandmother; Barbara Smith, Jacksonville, Ala.

Pallbearers will be Randy Hicks, LaBron Barnes, Justin Hicks, Raymond Matthews, Ricky Bentley, Johnny Bentley, Jerry Young, Josh Bragg and Mitchell Bragg. Honorary pallbearers will be Josh Crane, Dustin McWhorter, Michael Buchanan, Jackie Bentley, C.L. Bentley, Wayne Bentley, Josh Mickler, Mitchell Bragg, Dawn Gibbs and John Bentley.

To a very much loved son and brother. He loved Florida Seminoles and his dog Shelly. He will be truly missed.

He was preceded in death by his grandmother Vera Bentley and a grandfather Royce Hicks.

Fri, 03 Mar 2006 14:36:14 GMT

i am leaving. yes i am, yes i am. be home around 1 or 2.
finally.

Sun, 26 Feb 2006 06:36:09 GMT

R.I.P.
I will miss you a whole whole lot...
a whole
whole lot.

i started

Mon, 13 Feb 2006 19:26:03 GMT

nathan morris, reporting some news that is seemingly un important. for example: i got a job at mellow mushroom in enterprise, making on average 50$ a night if i do my job right. blockbuster said it would be like a week longer, and i don't want to wait. i start working at mellow tomorrow, and i have to wear my hair up, and it looks kinda silly. but, you know. also, i was wondering when some of my friends were going to drive down here and see me? starting next wek, i will have my own money to go out and do stuff. also, who all has cingular wireless? i was thinking about getting that phone service so i can talk free to everyone that has cingular.

v-day is tommorrow. good luck with that.

<3

Fri, 03 Feb 2006 15:36:09 GMT

dear josh: have you found any places to get video's for you iPod?
dear kyle: have you found any aqua teen episodes for the vidoe iPod, b/c i know you found all those faimly guy episodes?
dear iceland: have the CD's come in?
dear livejournal friends: has anyone put a down payment on that camera yet?
dear livejournal friends: some dude in front o fme has a shirt on that has the words "TAKE IT ALL OFF" on it... wow.

oh to be in a frat.

a bit much?

Tue, 24 Jan 2006 09:05:01 GMT

it has come to my realization that i am over protective of my friends... NO WAIT, i actually stick up for people and speak my mind if they say something bad about them...

sorry aimee and others...

feel free

Fri, 20 Jan 2006 15:15:29 GMT

to buy me this, it comes out in the spring:

http://www.americanphotojournalist.com/news.php?post_id=214

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 00:55:07 GMT

i just got finished watching Hustle and Flow...

i watched it by myself, seeing as how everyone thought i was joking about wanting to see it.

but i wasn't. any tiddle toot, it was a pretty good flick. "D-Jay's," accent is enough to make someone roll their eyes at times... over all, it was a good movie. the actors/tress' forgot to go to their acting 101 that morning i think. but, twas a good movie.

now all i need is "Get Rich or Die Tryin : the Story of 5 dimes."

truth about straight blades and clay people

Wed, 11 Jan 2006 17:44:53 GMT

psh... i don't really up date this thing with important facts or great stories anymore.

i was in Gulf Shores for New Years, then came back to Troy the day afterwards and got registered for classes. I got surprised with a Full scholorship on my arrival. I also managed to get 4 journalism classes and one art class which was a bit of a surprise. i didn't think that i would get any of those classes because i waited so late to get them... but i did.

I turned the big 21 on sunday. for my birthday i went to montgomery to see hostle. It wasn't good, in my opinion. When i left the movie theater i thought was an alright film... but now that i think about it, i think it was a terrible movie. The thing is, the first half of the movie is borderline porn, then the last 35 minutes is over dramatic sick demented bullshit that just puts ideas into people's head. The moral of the story, is "everything has its price." even when it comes to paying for torturement of another human being...

I went and bought some wine the other night, seeing as how i am now 21. The lady looked at my ID for a long time... it was funny.

I am going to be in Jacksonville on the 20th. To see ICELAND perform 3 songs and for my grandmother and my birthday... also my Dad's birhtday is near.

my class is about to start, wireless internet is the best... and photoshop on your laptop is even better.

love

Fri, 06 Jan 2006 19:35:40 GMT

January 1979 i saw a terrible crash

Fri, 06 Jan 2006 16:37:42 GMT

its been almost thirty years from the crash that killed everyone i ever knew... that part might not be true but it has been a long time since i have actually crawled out of bed before 10 oclock...

i started classes today, i would of started earlier but, i dont have classes on tuesdays nor thursdays, nor do i have one of my classes until next week. which is slightly pleasent.

i started working at the trop again this semester... it is going well i supose. i already have four stories and it is only the second day of school. which brings me to my next point. how i am sitting in the food court trying to get some interviews with people but no one seems approachable... the tragedy of the situation.

anyways, i am going to go and make my attempt at being social and somewaht of a pleasant person...

3 more classes to go, an hour and a half to burn.

peace.

Mon, 02 Jan 2006 17:55:56 GMT

happy new year, everyone. It was a busy christmas break, if i do say so my self. I was going to and fro the whole time, so my apologies to those i did not get to hang out with that much. i had to make several trips to troy to check on my cat and stuff and then for new yearsr i went to gulf shores and now i am back in troy b/c i had to register for classes. And, what a semester this is going to be... hard as shit. Anyways, I hope everyone had a great holiday and for all those in jacksonville i am going to come up for the Iceland show (anniston fest). My birthday is next Sunday. I don't know if i am going to do anything for it or not. I was going to go to jacksonville, but i think i might go to atlanta or just hang out here.

but, anyways.
i love you all, and i am sorry if we didnt get to hang out as much...

Notes in his pockets, and rat pellets in your chocolate

Sun, 25 Dec 2005 04:51:17 GMT

one hour and 15 minutes till christmas, and i am sure someone is at home "sleeping," with her hands clutched so tight they are white, and i am sure someone is home "sleeping," praying to hear something that would come close to sounding like santa.

i think i am going to go to bed and hope santa stays at my house, he seems like a really nice guy, i am pretty sure i would like to be friends with him.

Merry Christmas, my loyal live journal readers.

christmas

Thu, 15 Dec 2005 21:15:32 GMT

indeed. i got sucked into the glamor or the mp3 player. It is my first apple/mac product to own. I got the 30 GB, black iPod. It said that i can put videos on it, which is cool i guess. I am not going to watch an effing show on my iPod though. I have some stuff that i recorded with my digi camera, some American Beauty like stuff that i can put on there, i hope. Furthermore, it asked if I wanted to get it inscribed so i did, i got " see, they don't sleep anymore on the beach. " It is from Godspeed! You Black Emperor's first track, disc two entitled Sleep from the Lift Your Skinny Fist. Anyways, thats all I have for you, i have to pay 1/2 of it too b/c it was $300. So, i am just going to clean my computer off and get rid of it or something. Think i might just give it to my parents and call it a deal.

I am out of school, i got a Marine toad when i went to Gulf Shores to see my lady laney. I dunno what i am going to name it yet, but it eats a lot and its just a baby. I am going to be in Auburn on Friday, Birmingham Saturday and then Jacksonville. I will be able to hang out with the iceland crew and kyle soon, i told varnon i would be home on monday, but i might be home a little early... Laney will be in Jacksonville with me on Saturday - Monday i think. I dunno, we are going to my sister's graduation and stuff, which is Saturday. Anyways, sorry i am not home yet and stuff, i wish i was right now, but i have to finish cleaning my trailor. Take care.

blah

Wed, 07 Dec 2005 21:43:04 GMT

done with school
made a 103 on my Portfolio, sweet.
going to gulf shores to see my lady laney for a while.
then i am going to be in troy for a lil bit.
then i am going to jacksonville.
then i am comeing back to troy.
then i am going back to school.
nothing more, nothing less.

question

Sat, 26 Nov 2005 18:33:54 GMT

Is anyone on this community going to the Xiu Xiu concert in atlanta? If so, i have been looking for ways to pre order my tickets b/c i have about a 4-5 hour drive over there and i don't want to be ticketless. I have checked the Unicorn's page, but no dice.

any help?

thankyou.

love is dead

Fri, 25 Nov 2005 02:57:54 GMT

last year, i thought my 'luck' with getting sick on holidays was surely over. however, yesterday i thought i was just tired and stuff, but this morning i woke up and could barely move. so, i ate two bites of turkey and realized i could barely swallow, and everything after that i don't remember. i just woke up a little while ago. this sucks man. cameron's birthday is tomorrow, i need to take pictures and i don't want to be effing sick.

woe is me.

hope everyone else's thanksgiving was wonderful and i hope that you had a great time with your faimly and friends.

love.

Wed, 23 Nov 2005 18:42:33 GMT

im comein home for a little while.
i gotta take some pictures.
i gotta take some pictures.
thats the only way i can remember things now - a - days.

they are all for you dear

Mon, 21 Nov 2005 00:48:11 GMT

this one is for me:

this one is for laney:

it sounds more like a lament or a plea

Mon, 14 Nov 2005 17:38:11 GMT

please, for once. its been since december and now its novemember and it is comeing back to me. happiness. i haven't gotten bored. i feel need instead of want. so strange. so unlike me.

what is this towering down upon me, implosion? tisk. happiness.

"nor, do i like the childeren's voices. It almost seems like it should be the intro for a murder scene."

" if anyone asks, i am yours and you are mine."

ypsaykactdt

Thu, 10 Nov 2005 06:21:01 GMT

Your plan suffers all your knowledge and contrasts the devils test.

(scratching your head)

Theodicy - a way to show that a good God might have a good reason for letting innocent beings suffer or be subjected to evil.

It can be thought of as a big plan . Seeing as how many people that believe in God think that there is infact a big plan, and everything is planned out in your life, evil and all. On another note there is the theory that you suffer, to make you stronger. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, wiser person. But, then there is the theory or the theodicy that people do not understand the evil that is there, so therefore we do not understand what causes the evil or the bad we just know it is there. However we can contrast the good and evil to show what is truely evil and why it exists. This gives us a good way to see what is truely evil and what is, in fact Good. Then the older theodicy that the Devil is in control of doing evil to all. Furthermore, all evil is in the hands of the devil. The last of the seven theodicies is test . This theodicy is considered by myself to be the most evident and concurring of all of these theodicies: evil test people to make them to show who they really are .

this is one of the discussion questions on my philosophy test tomorrow. i wrote that from knowledge, and i am happy to say it is all correct. now, 41 more to go.

and i have pretty much realized that abstract concert photo's have been taken over by this fine man named Ryan Russell. i am pretty sure that he takes some of the best concert photos and promos known to man.

seriously.
night.

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 02:33:52 GMT

the first person that i thought i loved did studies those who are autistic. She worked with people from the "Learning Tree," which is pretty much an orphanage for those who are autistic. One day we were talking, and I started w/ my philosophical bullshit that I love, and we came upon a discussion. She said this at the end of the discussion: if you were to place a autistic child in a room, by him/herself and only feed and give the child water and the proper medicines, they would die. I didn’t understand, so I asked why. She got on the internet and showed me this site that detailed the process but the end result is this: Without touch and communication autistic children could die.

That is something that we all take for granted and we take each other for granted. We go day in, day out thinking about what shirt to where, who called who a prick, who said what and who did what. Many people converse about this situation, but then there are the select few that do not. There are some that keep things built up and then explode about everything, there are those that keep things built up and explode about one certain things and then there are those that never explode, that never break down, but in turn and respect kill themselves.

We are living with the dead and we don’t even know it. A person can be themselves and release a little bit of passion out at a time. I write, every day. If I asked people if they wanted me to send them in a Message form a poem or one of my writings when I write them, I am almost positive no one would respond. But, if I said that I would write them to talk shit and bitch, I am pretty sure that everyone would comply. Which is total : royal bullshit. I am not saying I am excluded from those who are interested in a juicy piece about an argument once ever six weeks or so, it is entertaining at times, especially when you don’t know the person. But, its still fucked up, and there is still the fact that I shouldn’t be reading it because it doesn’t concern me. Take your time, and look through my blogs and find where I have said something mean about someone, talked shit or anything of the same significance. You won’t have to look far, there isn’t many blogs. But, please do, I love a few readers.

Another thing on the “We are living with the dead” plug, so many people use others to better benefit themselves. Whether it be a friend or not, people are in the business of using people everyday and that’s messed up. Do people not see how strange and fucked up it is that others degrade others to better benefit themselves? People blame shit on other people to get votes, people say things that are not true to give themselves truth. The truth is precious, the world is fucked up and we have to live in it. But, we are living and walking with people that are dead inside and we pass them by. “Refill Me With Life” good sir, b/c this world is parched with uncertainty and self neglect.

Take pride in yourself, you know? There is something out there for someone and everyone can be who they want to be no matter what. But, you can’t reserve your seat in the next opportunity. You have to apply yourself, work and understand that nothing in life is free and the stupid fucker Dave Matthews said it best “You pay for what you get.”

And I don’t think that people understand that, I think that a lot of people think they can get away with anything just because they were depressed, on their period, had post traumatic stress disorder, social anxiety or were just insain. But, the result is still the same, no matter what a person does, the product of there stupidity reins and you can’t take words back.

All the Saints and All the Children

I bought my tickets for the fireworks and I have been sitting in the electric chair all night. So light me up I have nothing to lose. This world is dead, the people are dead, I am dead. My body keeps on going but my soul has been gone for so long. We were alive at one time and we smoked and we drank and we snorted lines through thirty dollar bills and walked on the skylines at night, we were who we were and now we have to step back, drain the faith that we had from this abyss and realize that our lives were never really that fucked up we just had to make them seem like they were to make ourselves die a little fucking longer . Die a little slower.

-Nathan David Morris